nan*s DustyRoad.

Sent you a card.
Write nothing inside.
The card already said it all.

The squares in my calendar.  They fill up too fast.  They need to hush.

Kayhan@Feb2, IH traffic@Feb3, Gaudino@Feb4, Tahoe@Feb10-12, Digitalism@Feb15, Artopia@Feb16, Mamma Mia@Feb24, Emancipator@Mar23, Rodrigo y Gabriela@Apr5, Coachella@Apr13-15, Ingrid Michaelson@Apr25

Just because of that slight linger of my eyes
On yours
Never can I
Forget your face

I missed a step and I fell
Life scattered before me
Panic all over the stairs
Me, all over the stairs

The sky is lit
But the ground is not

--- Sexy Silhouette, Cataclysmist (2011)

这一年来很喜欢听glitch风格，因为厚重张扬的霸气和天地辽阔的力量。从The Glitch Mob到Paper Diamond，都是大爱。喜欢他们稳重的节奏和不能抗拒的旋律，整个身心沉浸进去不能自拔。这次的Unlimited Gravity，喜笑颜开。深稳的音乐能够穿越心里平静的湖面而延伸到底处的激荡，共鸣出以前不能洞察的信心和能量。开篇Blessed一下是一下的鼓点，传递不能言说的感动。Sneezy Steeze跳跃的灵动。Sexy Silhouette委婉波浪的主旋律，竟有丝绸的妩媚流水的美好。Cataclysmist则是合大成的作品。当然再温柔的旋律在glitchy的配合下，都散发着不能曲折的骄傲。跑步的时候听，很不舍得音乐结束，上瘾了得希望能够就一直一直跑下去，到海角到天涯。

There are several kinds of love. One is a selfish, mean, grasping, egotistical thing which uses love for self-importance... The other is an outpouring of everything good in you -- of kindness and consideration and respect -- not only the social respect of manners but the greater respect which is recognition of another person as unique and valuable. The first kind can make you sick and small and weak but the second can release in you strength, and courage and goodness and even wisdom you didn't know you had.

If you love someone - there is no possible harm in saying so - only you must remember some people are very shy and sometimes the saying must take that shyness into consideration... Girls have a way of knowing or feeling what you feel, but they usually like to hear it also.

And don't worry about losing. If it is right, it happens -- The main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away.

- John Steinbeck

--- Support, Get Scraped (2006)

这个戴着米老鼠脑袋演奏的电子音乐者，和他令人不可小视的才华。大众喜闻，也不乏独特口味的精致小品。这张06年的专辑最得我心，开篇便是Malkovich式的对白，音乐未启已然铺垫下鬼魅的色调。听到Unspecial Effects，荡漾的节奏几乎动人。片刻的沉稳之后坚定的节奏和旋律的气势，好像飞翔的自由。8bit则一改前面的downtempo，用跳跃旋律和快速的节奏给你的快乐，只有8bit。又很快用Overdraft沉淀下来，好像Robert Miles。Intelstat很多Tiësto的影子。听到Support便是大爱。金属质感十足的开篇和波浪的开阔与优雅，有种天地沦陷也没有所谓的阵势。后来的几张作品都很禁得听，只是11年At Play失去了原有的紧张中的稳重，令人失望。

I will write to you.
And tell you my dreams.
My hopes and despair.
My confusion and dedication.
And my persistence.
I will carry on and leave you
No time to respond.
Until I tell you all the things,
All the important things,
That I simply could not,
When I face you.

I will write to you.
And flood my heart for you.

The night wraps me in but I feel the fire, burning my eyes and every inch of the skin, only feel no pain.
It corrupts my bones and deafens my antenna, with its unapproachable warmth in the washed out sky.
I give in to the music and I start to dance, sinking to my knees and pounding to the drums of my fears.
For you to hear me.
And my deeply-buried ever-implosion screams before they slowly fade out and never return. 

I will write to you.

All these festivals, Lollapalooza, Outside Lands, Lovevolution, Treasure Island Music Fest, Hardly Strictly Bluegrass.  Next Coachella. Attended gigs, Austra, Four Tet, Pearson Sound, Cyrstal Method, Nosaj Thing.  Missed Gold Panda, Boys Noize, Two Fresh.  My soulmate music goes to the Glitch Mob; much crush on Four Tet, Paper Diamond, Parov Stelar, and Pretty Lights.  Music that makes me hopeful and fearless, breathe deeply and freely, makes me longing for dancing.

Coachella's lineup.  Can't wait to see M83, Neon Indians, Feist, Flying Lotus, tUnE-yArDs, the Shins, Sub Focus, Destroyer, La Roux, the Weeknd, etc.  And to discover new affairs.

Coachella's ticket-purchasing process was brutal. The sale started at 10am.  We were up and ready to battle since 8.  Weekend 1 tickets got sold out within one hour, weekend 2 within three.  The entire capacity is estimated as about 90,000 x 2. Well advertised events: the more scarce the access is, the more people desire it. Let alone this year's lineup is indeed breath-takingly bewitching.

--- Sherlock (2012), BBC One

好久好久不看电视了，可是福尔摩斯的电视不是电视。BBC 1拍的现代版的福尔摩斯就更不能用电视来描述了。看的人心激动，拍案不止，也笑得上气不接下气。新版的夏洛克塑造得神奇又可爱，任性又狡猾，一手小黑莓乱敲。华生倒是比较基于原著，更有点军人的临危不惧。美剧真的不能再看了。转战伦敦。

James Walton评价道Or rather, in any number of whole new directions because, once again, Sherlock served up a heady mix of thrills, comedy, literary pastiche, something approaching a thoughtful commentary on the original tales and a non-stop sequence of nifty plot-twists. Better still, it did all this without losing coherence, or allowing its obvious respect for Arthur Conan Doyle to turn into excessive reverence.

“I'M ON FIRE! ”hohoho...

--- Before Sunset (2004)
Directed and written by Richard Linklater

看得这样揪心。
美丽得这样脆弱。
无奈得这样无处不在。

也许我们只适合短暂相遇在欧洲的街头，温暖的午后。然后不等繁复而残酷的现实追赶上我们，就说再见。

那部日出之前是很久前看的，也早就知道这部续集，但对日出soulmate一样的喜爱和对任何续集一向的失望，这部《日落之前》一直搁置。那天终于积攒够了心情准备再看一部愚蠢的续集，没想到又一次丢失了心骨的不安。知道如果排出来重逢相爱的喜剧会被自己取笑鄙视，可不知道排出如此现实却又令自己意外的失魂落魄。面对曾经充满理想和勇气的年轻的自己，逐渐陷入现实越来越深的我们真是痛恨发疯又胆战心惊。

Memory is such a wonderful thing if we don't have to deal with the past。

哭一场睡一觉再欺骗亲哄自己一会儿，把偶尔经过的美好再往心里雕刻得深一点。美好的落日，来来的往往。看过现实的残酷和莫名其妙，自身的懒惰和软弱渺小，也不放弃美好的可能。

一切都是云烟，不如就飘散得洒脱还热烈。